Feeling the HEAT

The past few days have been weird. I have been going thru quite alot of stressed. Which is quite usual. People who know me, know that i always take the stress, no matter how small the issue is. But this time the issue is not small, it's quite big and long..my 1 yr long FYP. Having to work/think/ponder/worry about that same project for almost 300 days....that's quite alot to take. I don't think i ever had a problem that lasted so long! Plus the travelling to NTU and IME will practically kill me I m worried when I'll actually have the time to study for my 3 subjects (not much..but i suspect they will be pretty heavy), AND apply for jobs, AND write cover letters, resumes AND go for interviews! Hehe i find it impossibly funny!

But this has to be done...students before me have done it, and i will pull thru it as well. What keeps me going is the fact that so many people believe in me. My family, always there to support me, my awful mood swings, and my silly tantrums. My mom especially takes care of me, constantly asking me what's happening even though she doesn't understand most of what i say. But talking to her, i feel she takes some of the weight off my shoulders.

And then, there is always the support of my wonderful bunch of friends. We r all in the same boat, and we WILL pull thur it. I think we have pulled thur some of the hardest time together and this is just a piece of cake. Going thru a hard process, with fun and laughter just makes it more memorable(in a good way).

After talking to all these people, i feel much calmer, and i think i have energised myself for the next 10 months (not even a yr!). I guess, when i read this 10 mths later, i will just laugh at myself, wondering how silly i was to worry so much about a academic project. Mom always tells me...if you start worrying about such small things, you'll have too many things to worry about when your life actually starts. But tts just me, i just have a habit about worrying about everything! =)